Was thinking the other day about stability, and how it is something that I feel I need in my life right now in a big way.
My thoughts were running along these lines:
The root of the word is stable and it comes from a Latin word which means 'to stand'. (I had to look this up). To me this means something to do with standing on my own two feet, so to speak. And that I should not have to rely on others in my life to provide stability. That I should be able to find that stability within myself.
AND at that thought, I had a strange visceral feeling of panic or clenching in my gut.
I filed that thought and feeling away to deal with later, because it wasn't something I could deal with just then. So now, I've had some time to process this without that feeling of panic looming quite so close.
I am going to be spending some time relearning how to ground and center myself and I will be searching for practices- spiritual practices - that can help me do this.
Stand with me?
grounding, something us water signs have trouble with, in that we are always moving and don't feel grounded. well you picked a good time, as we are in the season of Earth. a time of slowing down, stopping to listen to ourselves. laying the earth fallow, to rest, regain its strength. though with the hectic times of xmas/yule it seldom seems like we have time to breath let alone stop and feel ourselves and see where we are standing. in my mind I am in this great Oak grove digging my toes into the dirt and feeling the age of the trees. take my hand and let me help you to your feet, you are very capable of standing tall and strong. hugs
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ReplyDeleteI was thinking about what gives me a sense of stability and this is the question that came up, "What's true in my life that nothing and no one can take away?"
Hmmmm, stability. What Wenders said is very wise: "What's true in my life that nothing and no one can take away?" To that I would normally answer: "Me.", but nowadays, I think I have more fears around this than ever, what with my diagnosis of bipolar 5yrs ago. I now feel as if I can't trust myself to BE myself, & therefor am not stable. Food for thought for sure!
ReplyDeleteI am ALWAYS standing with you my friend, & I gotchyer back too!
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