Who does she think she is?

Stability, Part two

I was surprised by the feeling of fear I felt when contemplating being my own source of stability. I have always thought of myself as being self-sufficient in this regard. I previously believed that what I needed was to admit my need of others, to recognize that I should allow myself to lean on others from time to time.

I have begun to think that perhaps I need to look into this deeper. One path of exploration is system of the chakras. To me, intuitively, this need for stability is centered in my third chakra - or the solar plexus. It's a feeling of "having a back-bone" and being able to stand tall. So I found this video that deals with that chakra. I find the video rather distracting, so close your eyes and listen.

Stability

Was thinking the other day about stability, and how it is something that I feel I need in my life right now in a big way.

My thoughts were running along these lines:
The root of the word is stable and it comes from a Latin word which means 'to stand'. (I had to look this up). To me this means something to do with standing on my own two feet, so to speak. And that I should not have to rely on others in my life to provide stability. That I should be able to find that stability within myself.

AND at that thought, I had a strange visceral feeling of panic or clenching in my gut.

I filed that thought and feeling away to deal with later, because it wasn't something I could deal with just then. So now, I've had some time to process this without that feeling of panic looming quite so close.

I am going to be spending some time relearning how to ground and center myself and I will be searching for practices- spiritual practices - that can help me do this.

Stand with me?

A song about the shoulds

Lizard's Evil Minions

Because everyone needs somebody to do the dirty work ;)

Lost generation

This is a very cool video that I saw at the New Professionals Network conference last week.

Soundtrack to the Bollywood movie in my head

cherry

Ha! I popped our blog's cherry! Neener neener!

Um, Ok, now what?

I'll have to think about this, I can plainly see.